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Not that much matters now, anyway ( 01 May 2004 - 6:23 p.m. ) I cut last night because I was lonely, so very lonely. I still am really, although I feel somewhat better about myself, having eaten, and now the sun's come out. It's still not ok, but I can cope with it, I think. This hangover lingers, and I'm just think of the people who care, because they are all I really have. I'm glad I do have people who love me, glad I have Cat and Christina I can talk to and they'll help, and won't judge, and will try to understand. Glad that Cat will always put up with every crazy mood I throw at her. Glad she loves me. But there is something missing, some hollow loneliness at my centre that can't seem to be filled by all this. And I'm tired of feeling it all the time. Tired of waking up alone. It won't seem to change, it all stays the same, and just goes on longer and longer, until it's all I see, all I feel, all I want is the solution to this. Remember when you were young You shone like the sun Shine on you crazy diamond. | |||||||||