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I have no idea. Nothing makes sense ( 22 April 2004 - 10:32 p.m. ) It started off badly, when I woke up angry. And still tired. Then I talked to Cat, giving one word answers, until she left. And tried to work, but i couldn't talk, because I can't understand what people are saying, i'm so tired. Later I apologise to Cat, and try to work more. At some point a three-hour spasm of doing stuff hits me. After which I feel dizzy, and worse than before. I can't remember the day properly, i'm not really aware of what's happening, and i'm fucking up an msn conversation with Christina, who is quite distraught, by talking utter nonsense. My brain isn't going straight and I should probably sleep, only I don't want too. Because last night I woke up, and was utterly terrified of nothing at all. I wasn't dreaming, I wasn't thinking of anyhting I was just utterly terrified. And I'm kind of scared again now You say you don't want it again and again But you don't, don't really mean it You say you don't want it this circus we're in But you don't, don't really mean it, You don't don't really mean it. | |||||||||