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Musclepain and hail ( 06 April 2004 - 10:29 p.m. ) So I finally went to the doctor about the pain in my neck that i've had for so long. That's creeping down my shoulders and into my arms. And apparantly I sit wrong, and stand wrong. So I have to do it right, which is quite unnatural, and requires alot of concious effort which is a bit tiring. And I have to take painkillers all the time, cos they stop the muscles going into spasm. And it should be better in about four weeks, and if it's not, or it gets worse, I have to go back. Four weeks. And Chrissie is in great, great distress, about so many things. I got quite scared for her at some points, she kept saying she'd given up. Somehow, though, I managed to give out advice that seemed somewhat helpful, so she said. And she went off to sort some things out with people, that had been upsetting her. I don't know how that went, but I truly hope it's ok. I hate seeing lovely people in such a state. And there was a hailstorm today, which was beautiful in a dramatic way: everything went white, you could hardly see through it, and the ground was covered in hailstones, looking almost like snow. Cat came on messenger, and we talked. And talked and tlaked and talked. Long conversations and flirty little childish arguments. And both avoided the subject of "us" entirely. Which is good because I have no wish to discuss it until Monday, until we can talk face-to-face. And I've really still come to no conclusion about what I feel. I've been trying not to think about it, to be honest. Because I know there is little point: I know my feelings will come out many times stronger when I see her again, so until then I won't even really know. | |||||||||