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Cut ( 18 March 2004 - 9:10 p.m. ) Today was frustrating. The headache was kind of there still, when I woke, in a kind of dull form. And I hadn't slept properly, so when I got up I was even more fuzzy, and annoyed. And various things made me feel worse and worse, until I felt like giving up completely, because I what I was doing so much. And I wanted to cut so badly, so overwhelmingly, that I could think of nothing else for most of the day. It's really the first time for ages I felt like that, and I don't like it. And I hate when days go like this, when I just want to escape, and so badly want to hurt myself, to get the frustration out. And my neck and shoulders are worse. Maybe I should see a doctor, everyone keeps telling me to, cos I do't know what's wrong But... I haven't cut because Cat's so lovely to me and because I could think of things I am going to do now, to make myself feel better {I have no icecream darling, but I'll do all the rest...}. | |||||||||