Lost in the depths of the blue ( 16 March 2004 - 9:00 p.m. )

It was a beautiful day. All sunny and crystal blue. So I couldn't help but feel better {but you helped too}. And so the irritation of mostly everyone else faded. And Cat was so excited that it felt like summer, that I couldn't stop myself from smiling. It felt nice to do that again.

I loved it, I walked around all confident, and didn't talk to people when they annoyed me, and so maybe I can control it. Probably only for today, but one day's good. And I could notice everything, and the little wispy white clouds in they sky were so lovely, and it was almost a perfect day.

That girl was there again today. She turned round at one point, and she looked so gorgeous that I just melted, and that was the end, I couldn't do anything after that. So once more, I didn't talk to her.

Why am I so scared of girls I'm really attracted to?

Don't you wonder
If I love her?
Don't you ever
Think I care?


Will someone help me to live? I keep losing it too quickly.

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